After realising that I was 2-3 days late, and knowing full well that I'm never late unless I'm pregnant, I went and bought a pregnancy test kit. The disbelief lingers. It wasn't planned... but then I never really did plan any of my other three pregnancies (and secretly wonder how it is possible to plan one). Please understand that not planned never equals 'not wanted' in my book. I told the Goddess a while back to only allow for a fourth pregnancy if and when the time was right. There is a soul on the other side of the veil that has chosen me and my partner... and I feel so graced.
It's now about 7.50 PM, and I have known about the pregnancy since about 1.30 PM. I'm sat here typing to allow it all to sink in. I'm typing so that I can give thanks properly for the grace of going through the miracle of pregnancy and childbirth one last time (or so it feels). I'm typing to be in the present moment with the immense joy that I feel when I allow for it.
It's difficult to know who to tell at this stage. Part of me wants to shout it from the rooftops, and another part of me wants to make sure that everything will be alright first - as if there is something I could do or as if more time would somehow make it alright... I'm going to make an executive decision and decide that it is alright to go with the flow on that... My intuition will guide me about who will be positive about it. The last thing I want or need right now is other peoples' negativity. I can feel a cull coming on.
I have told my sister already. I wanted her to be the first to know besides my partner since she psychically predicted this pregnancy the other week. Needless to say, she wasn't surprised :)
Some of them might think that I'm too old for another child, but not many eyebrows are raised over pregnancy at 40 these days. Personally, I'm not worried about statistics. I'm grateful for being more experienced and a lot less anxious these days. I know I can do this...
I chose to illustrate today's post with the Empress card - my Soul Card. I'm a tarot reader and healer, so you can expect a spiritual twist to the posts over the next 9 or so months.
