Another dream about Willow

Shortly after I miscarried baby Willow at 14 weeks due to Edward's syndrome (Trisomy 18), the baby's father left. He is running from the pain of the loss, refusing to deal with it. This is what I wish I could share with him:

Do you ever dream about her? I had another dream about her last night. We couldn't find her... after looking frantically everywhere, we found her sleeping peacefully in our bed. I picked her up and held her close to my heart, weeping with relief. She woke up and ate hungrily from the first breast... I burped her and tried to feed her from the second breast but she soon fell asleep again in my arms.

It was a sweet and realisitic dream... well, apart from the bit about us misplacing the baby... but I suppose that is realistic too since you and I don't talk about her. She feels very close right now. I hope you can feel her this way too and that you are comforted by her presence.

Strange dreams...

I woke up in the middle of the night feeling anxious, wondering why... and was instantly pulled back into the memory of my dream. I had been shown the state of our planet - how we are very quickly turning into a big tip... the oceans being filled with rubbish until no life can exist there. My baby is due in the month of Cancer... a Water Element child - a child of the great Oceans... I know this baby is choosing to incarnate to serve on the planet... but I still feel guilty for bringing another soul down to a planet that is being killed by ignorance and greed.

Gaia, save us from ourselves! Hekate Soteira, bless this Warrior Child with wisdom and strength! So mote it be. )O(