A Dream from Willow

The High Priestess - An Angel Baby Dreamweaver

I started blogging daily again a couple of days ago, with 22 days to go until the due date. As some of you may know, I'm a tarotist and when I realised the synchronicity of the fact that there was a 22 day countdown where I had a chance to work my way through the loss of my baby Willow in awareness, I couldn't help but make the connection with the journey through the 22 Major Arcana cards of the Tarot.

In fact, this connection first became apparent to me when I wrote 'I am free' in the first post of the countdown a couple of days ago, since writing those words immediately connected me with The Fool (Uranus) archetype. Yesterday, with 21 days to go, I decided to work my way through the Magician (Mercury) space by telling my story. I cried my way through it and found it hugely therapeutic.

Today's post is dedicated to the High Priestess (Moon) energies. Last night, before falling asleep, I asked Willow for a dream. I didn't expect what came...

All night, I have been dreaming about being the single mother of a beautiful baby girl - the way I imagine Willow would have looked had she been born healthy. I was going through my day, working really hard to keep everyone happy but I had no one to turn to for support. There was no father in the picture and I woke up completely exhausted from having had to do it all myself.

Thank you, Willow! I woke up grateful that I don't have to struggle on my own. You showed me that the first dream I had during the pregnancy about your father was absolutely true. He would have found an excuse to get away from us even if you would have been born perfectly healthy. He was never prepared to do the hard work it takes to be a family man. I was spared heartache of a different kind and I know that you are well. I love you with all my heart, my beautiful angel!